April was quite a month I must say. However, today I found myself feeling triggered by a multitude of things such as my inability to retrieve my voicemails, feeling non essential etc. Before I allowed the physical symptoms that accompany stress manifest; I had to take quick action.
I addressed the material things as best I could in a controlled manner by contacting the appropriate people. Then I decided I had to take action so I did not fall into the rabbit hole. I feel absolutely everything so when something upsets me; I feel like I am in a full blown spiritual warfare battle. I went for a walk to clear my head & then proceeded with the following course of action uncovering discoveries & past revelations in the mix!
I decided to deep clean despite the fact it aggravates a pain I have that will not go away. Instead of wallow in despair & self pity, which I strive to not to be I decided to go under my bed & found a bunch of stuff I was hanging onto that I no longer needed. I recently put the earthing mat on my bed so a lot of stuff got moved around.
I was astonished to find my dream box that must have fallen was empty!!!! It took a lot of thought & energy into writing as small as I could the list of things I want to manifest in my life.
The front of the box was a lovely reminder I must say, but where was my list of dreams? I was triggered. Who stole these dreams? All I know is who did not do it. Ideas are swirling but reality is “I do not know.”
“If You Don’t Know You Are Not As Dumb As Someone Who Willingly Thinks They Do.”
-Quote my friend stated to me today.
I want to be a grab the Universe by the balls kind of dreamer not an empty wooden box. This box is getting re-filled immediately by the way. With that being said; if you are feeling bored & unessential maybe do some cleaning you never know what you may find. You also never know what you may find that needs to be trashed immediately as they are just reminders of a past you want to forget.
Perhaps like myself you may find some broken things or things that are missing something & no longer fully functional. From an energetic perspective; these things just hold you back & tie you down.
Then these lyrics popped in my mind of this song that used to constantly play on the playlist of someone I used to sit close to at a job many years ago so I quickly took note.
Everytime I would hear my name in a song; I could not help but perk up. Then as I got older I could do an amazing performance to it. Singing songs out of tune & doing a choreographed dance to them is one of my favorite things to do. I fully embody the song & the lyrics. Many people have found this little favorite past time of mine rather amusing I must say.
“That’s life (that’s life), that’s what all the people say
You’re ridin’ high in APRIL, shot down in MAY
But I know I’m gonna change that tune
When I’m back on top, back on top in JUNE
I said that’s life (that’s life), and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks stompin’ on a DREAM
But I don’t let it, let it get me down
’cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin’ around”
– Frank Sinatra
The little things that seem to click together when one loves to imagine & apply a new perspective is such a thrill for me as if I am high on life!
As for me, I will not let anyone stomp on my dreams & will continue to DREAM ON like Aerosmith. Hopefully I will be back on top come June singing & dancing in tune. ❤